It was. five. months ago. today....
i was sitting in the hospital room after a biopsy,colonoscopy,etc
that my. surgeon wthree other doctors. came into. my room
in my groggy state ,i sat up. and said hello
she. the surgeon,then asked. me ? do i kow. my name,where was I,did i know. what operations were done. few. hours earlier,was I aware of. what hospial I was in whats my oncologist name
i replied,got. an a on the test. and. she leaned. in
close. and said
your. cancer is back.............ok,I said
she then proceeded. to explain it was outside. my. stomach,spreading. fast
uncontainable ,unoperable,any more treatment. was fruitless,no. chemo or operation was going. to help. in future,that. I. had. two maybe. four. months. to. live
and. to. go. home
make. my. plans. on whats. next,and it was way past stage. four.
to. say the least. i was speechless. and. sat ataring. at. the four. of them in silence
I said. ok. thanks,and. asked. when i could leave. unc. chapel n.c. and. head. back. home. to. tell
four. five. hours. later. i was. dressed and out. door,at. the exit, i knew i was. going to India
to remain. for. the. time. I was. told had. left. to live.
made appts. the next week w surgeon. and oncologist of last four years
and was picked up. soon driven home.........
two weeks later was onindian. soil in new delhi nov 2
its. now. five months. later.
my stomach. is flat,the expansion of fluids was drained two mo. ago
22-1/2 pounds lighter,
and. my pain. management changed. from methadone,to patches on my shoulder
that send morphine like drugs,fifty x stronnger,
into my. body 24/7
changed every 72 hours
i am walking. getting out daily. by wheelchair. seeing. the ocean. smiling at every ,person i see
jovial,happy. and. seeing. doctors weekly in my hotel room,all are amazed at. my good spirit. health,blood pressure,happy go lucky. good vibes,was bedridden. not. to walk ever
again and losing. pounds. fast ,until. now,
feeling. good. have. eating. plumbing. problems,daily,but. out of. pain
see the sun come up n go down.
glad. to be here in goa. india. and. not. a bed in a hospital with. tubes n chemo and nurses all
over surrounded by sick people ,
have. made. a choice to be in a place where. i. can control. my. destiny my future. and.
will know when time. is up.
you only live once
make. time. to. stop. your. busy. life and. remember. every. day. whats important
in the end. you are alone,but.
spend time with. your family. and friends. and. do the. things you always wanted
go. to the places. you have dreamed about. to visit. stay focused on
whats. the most. important. things. in. your. life
i. am 62 yrs old,had wondeful life full of. love. travel seeing. the. art of the world.
am with the most loving amazing woman caring woman on the planet
and happy. .camper.
sending. love. and thanks. to all I have known. thruout my life
its all about. family n freinds in the end
enjoy. your. stay on this crowded planet. make time. to smell the roses
its. my. five month anniversary
wow. this has been some. journey
love. n hugz to all
scott david morgan