Scott part 4

I have written 3 blog posts so far about my friend Scott Morgan. But there has to be more. This part 4 comes direct from an email I just received from him. It is so poignant and touching and honest that I feel compelled to share it verbatim, without correcting his eccentric typographical style. Here it is:

It was. five. months ago. today....

i was sitting in the hospital room after a biopsy,colonoscopy,etc 

that my. surgeon wthree other doctors. came into. my room

in my groggy state ,i sat up. and said hello

she. the surgeon,then asked. me ? do i kow. my name,where was I,did i know. what operations were done. few. hours earlier,was I aware of. what hospial I was in whats my oncologist name

i replied,got. an a on the test. and. she leaned. in

close. and said

your. cancer is back.............ok,I said

she then proceeded. to explain it was outside. my. stomach,spreading. fast

uncontainable ,unoperable,any more treatment. was fruitless,no. chemo or operation was going. to help. in future,that. I. had. two maybe. four. months. to. live

and. to. go. home

make. my. plans.  on whats. next,and it was way past stage. four.

to. say the least. i was speechless. and. sat ataring.  at. the four. of them in silence

I said. ok. thanks,and. asked. when i could leave. unc. chapel n.c.  and. head. back. home. to. tell

katy.

four. five. hours. later. i was. dressed and out. door,at. the exit, i knew i was. going to India

to remain. for. the. time. I was. told had. left. to live.

made appts. the next week w surgeon. and oncologist of last four years

and was picked up. soon driven home.........

two weeks later was onindian. soil in new delhi nov 2

its. now. five months. later.

my stomach. is flat,the expansion of fluids was drained two mo. ago

22-1/2 pounds lighter,

and. my pain. management changed. from methadone,to patches on my shoulder 

that send morphine like drugs,fifty x stronnger,

into my. body 24/7

changed every 72 hours 

i am walking.  getting out daily. by wheelchair. seeing. the ocean. smiling at every ,person i see

jovial,happy. and. seeing. doctors weekly in my hotel room,all are amazed at. my good spirit. health,blood pressure,happy go lucky. good vibes,was bedridden. not. to walk ever 

again and losing. pounds. fast ,until. now,

feeling. good.  have. eating. plumbing. problems,daily,but. out of. pain

see the sun come up n go down. 

glad. to be here in goa. india. and. not. a bed in a hospital with. tubes n chemo and nurses all

over surrounded by sick people ,

have. made. a choice to be in a place where. i. can control. my. destiny my future. and. 

will know when time.  is up.

so

you only live once

make. time. to. stop. your. busy. life and. remember. every. day. whats important

in the end. you are alone,but. 

spend time with. your family. and friends. and. do the. things you always wanted

go. to the places. you have dreamed about. to visit. stay focused on

whats. the most. important. things. in. your. life

i. am 62 yrs old,had wondeful life full of. love. travel seeing. the. art of the world. 

am with the most loving amazing woman caring woman on the planet

and  happy. .camper.

sending.  love. and thanks. to all I have known. thruout my life

its all about.       family n freinds in the end

enjoy. your. stay on this crowded planet. make time. to smell the roses

its. my. five month anniversary

wow. this has been some. journey

love. n hugz to all

scott david morgan